My heart is filled with a constellation
dancing and soaring through the dark
but stars burn brightest at their death
and from flaming blasts blossom new scars
that I cannot, will not ever regret
Spanish roses braided in dark hair
a crimson crest and waterfall
placed by fingers warm and skilled
as Mama hums my heart, be still
mi corazon, mi madre, la luna
Buttercups blushed across the lawn
that Spring before so much went wrong
slender fingers intertwined, lifelong sisters
until our star turned supernova
stone crumbled to ash in white-knuckled grasp
Lavender lilies in trembling hands
and silver tie to match sparkling dress
for our night of dance in feigned Paris
too young and abashed to last long
mi corazon, mi dulce, el primero
Sweet peas spritzed across my wrist
a gift for mi bellita, no longer la niña
but a woman growing still
Abuelo did not see the wildflowers
already in my veins
Our many kisses watched by white asters
from clear vases on linoleum counters
that couldn’t taste the chamomile and honey
on our tongues as fingers tangled in soft hair
mi corazon, mi amor, el sol
I feel their hands still stroke my head
at night before I rest in bed
but blankets can’t replace their arms
and blue blooms cannot heal our scars
small periwinkle peonies on white cotton
When I survey my many stars
half have fallen or gone dark
Mi madre glimmers not too far
Mi hermana fled to brighter skies
Mi primero flew to another’s galaxy
Mi abuelo has begun to dim
Mi amor faded from the night
but I gather those fragments of my heart
blackened yet smooth from the inferno
and plant them in fields of yellow daffodils