Big Sis Advice: New year, same me


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Greetings all. This semester marks the beginning of the new year 2019, also including countless Instagram posts with the same caption, “New year, new me.” As I scroll past each post of my re-invented followers, I can’t help but wonder if it’s okay to stay the same? The year of 2018 knocked me down so many times, however the amount of times that I had to get up made me into someone that I’m not ready to let go of.

Just like a diamond, created by time and pressure, 2018 felt like the pressure cooker of my life. I discovered so many things about myself that even thinking about a new “me” — according to the changing of a date that marks a new year- made old-year me anxious. There were so many cloudy days that I found myself yelling at the sky, “why me?” Then there were other days that the sun came out and revealed why my situation chose me. Now, am I saying I’m a diamond in my final form?  Hell no.

I discovered many things about myself, though. I would take the shirt off my back for the people that I love. I like blueberry preserve jelly and I prefer that there not be one cloud in the sky on a sunny day. Waiting to do things last minute and grabbing carne asada tacos from the southside have become my weakness. While each of these things that I’ve discovered about myself are small or big in their own way, they’re nonetheless a treasure chest of discoveries that digging up was so hard to do yet in the end, are totally worth it.

Why not change the game instead of re-inventing yourself for clout or a following increase? Hold onto whatever diamond you came to be as a result of the previous year. Something along the lines of “New year, same me.” Yeah, that sounds about right.

For my diamonds


Big Sis